Monday, October 31, 2022

Building a Life



Heave up a brick and slap on the mortar

I am building a life.

Covered in mud the first brick layers

used clay and sticks. 

A sloppy undertaking

but the results came anyways.

The Egyptian pyramids weren't built in a day

and the road to Rome is paved with good intentions.

Never the mind.

I have long eyelashes and old galoshes

I will wade through the ponds.

Sending a baby in the reeds

for good measure.


Image source: https://www.bl.uk/learning/cult/inside/goldhaggadahstories/mosesstory/moses.html

(what a way to interpret drawing water)

Sunday, October 30, 2022

Falling in Love

Tying shoes in an intimate way, the loops fell over one another.





Saturday, October 29, 2022

Puff of Smoke


The supreme intelligence is out there, the mastermind behind

The pristine happenstance is hanging in the balance

between my eyes and my mind

trapeze

blow wind blow

a puff of smoke

and all is the same

again.


Image source: https://pixels.com/featured/the-trapeze-acrobats-vintage-pix.html



Friday, October 28, 2022

The Grace of Grapes



The grapes around my waist make a belt of wine

shaded in the summer by the vines

Lo and behold come hold me

child in the dust beaten by the sun until

your mind rusts

never your heart!

Your heart is covered 

highlighted

swallowed by the halo

your grace takes over

and makes all graves full

and never hollow

Allow me to recognize this bounty

this fruitful handful count me in

to the harvest moon so full

and hanging

guiding the ships at night

across the waters

Did you ransom off your stolen daughters?

Pawn the wallets of your sons?

I had pride, once, a long time ago

but the cowboys

made me run.

Indian.

Sun.


Photo by demi huang on Unsplash

Thursday, October 27, 2022

Strong Water




There is a glass of water

there is water in a glass

there is a river full of water

there is water in a river

one flows

one stands still

There is a cloud full of rain

there is rain in a cloud

There is a hose full of water

there is water in a hose

one is full of potential

one is going going gone.

How we choose to be 

the glass or the stream.

There is no right or wrong

it's just knowing which is which

so you can be strong

flowing like the essence

of joy lost and found

only in 

dreams.



Photo by Nicolas Ruiz on Unsplash

Wednesday, October 26, 2022

The Power of a Mirror

The sun rises in the East.

My windows face West.

In the morning at 8:05,

the sun hits the windows 

on the building across from me.

The building which does face East,

and windows which do face the sun.

The reflection is so strong

it's almost like I'm facing East.

The sun is glaring at me.

That's the power of a mirror,

it can turn the whole world

around.

Tuesday, October 25, 2022

Blue Gill Blues



Dew on the side of a can of Coca Cola

Looking at the babies in the strollers

holes in the jeans of the holy rollers

on their knees from where they're praying

petting sleeping dogs as they are laying

just don't wake the dragon

keep the drinkers on the wagon

I've got my head in the middle 

of a magazine

reading about all the scenes

the silver screens and hills of dreams

paid in beans and what it means

is that if life don't break you 

then your mind will

shooting fish in a barrel

this time

cock the gun

and open

the holy grail

Huck Finn

you win

you got your pail

I'm the blue gill

Blurp

Blurp

Blurp.

Might as well skin me get me on the grill and eat your fill

the hook in my mouth won't make me shout

I just have to rethink

the whole problem

of 

worms

and freewill.


Image source: https://gfp.sd.gov/bluegill/

Friday, October 21, 2022

Mix Me Up




When the coffee in the cup grows cold

it sits on the counter at the diner

in its porcelain vessel

growing colder by the moment

losing its "coffeeness"

Then, the waitress comes by

like a thief in the night

and pours a sloppy yet deft

layer

to it

And it doesn't happen like icing on a cake

nor like sediment from the times of dinosaurs

each one on the next

all lined up

in a colorful display in a canyon

no, it's something more like a Venn Diagram

what happens

when the cold coffee 

mixes with the hot

and then it is 

all warm.



Image: Pinterest MangoStreet.com

https://www.pinterest.com/mangostreetlab/

Thursday, October 20, 2022

No Phoenix




The potential spillage of cigarettes rolled with shaking fingers

the ashes on the carpet are just messy, there's no Phoenix in site

She is in the bottom of the canyon praying to different gods

than the ones you know

high from a peace pipe and lower than she's ever been

What of the devil makes you shed your skin?

Snake dance into the night

let the river pound your bones

with its rushing waters

you are the canoe.

I am your paddle.

Let's get somewhere.



Image source: https://depositphotos.com/vector-images/phoenix-rising.html

Wednesday, October 19, 2022

It's Not Dance



The passion of the rat race ribbons

Greased for gumshoe detectives

riding high on metamorphosis

slipping over the canyon into the abyss

Was not the question in the coffee

when the clouds of cream stirred

your worried mind to think?

Mondays are always stuck in the mud

my tires spinning

into infinity

whipping the dirt 

into frenzied backpacks of schooling

which I never learned my lessons

lined notebook paper

holding me hostage

with a sharpened pencil

and the teacher's biting tongue

sour apples

the ballet dancer's career is not dance-- 

it's grace.

Look into the mirror, it's so flat that you could place your hand on it.

The world is round, ask a shipbuilder.

No use staring at the mirror

no use staring at your navel

Tie up the ballet shoes

and make a butterfly

hang a wing in shame

to your colors

your being

and your bang, bang, bang.

What is at the door?

Oh nothing, just a delusion of grandeur.

Tip him and he'll bring the car around.

Carry my luggage

swirl this mess into dice games

and crap shoots.

I'm just throwing sawdust at the moon now.



Image source:

Ballerinas on Window Sill in Rehearsal Room at George Balanchine's School of American Ballet

by Alfred Eisenstaedt https://www.allposters.com/-sp/Ballerinas-on-Window-Sill-in-Rehearsal-Room-at-George-Balanchine-s-School-of-American-Ballet-Posters_i3781711_.htm?PODConfigID=4990704&sOrigID=53680&upi=P43K8J0

Sunday, October 16, 2022

Glasses

The last time this happened I fell off the ledge

dove into the waters

and felt the coolness

Now I have no place to go

just a glass of water

to drink.

Friday, October 14, 2022

The sun is rising from the center of my guitar

The sun is rising from the center of my guitar

the light is coming up there

the strings cast shadows

like tall trees in the forest

stretching on the ground of my fingertips

moving up my arms in vibrations

of acrobatic readiness

my fingertips are tight rope walkers



The Infomercial



I think we have to believe what is possible.

It's not impossible, it's possible.

Time isn't something to manage, it's something to leverage,

it has the ability to multiply and contract.

We've all experience moments dragging on,

and hours passing in a flash,

what then, is time?


When you are done pondering the fluidity of time,

turn your gaze to hope. Let your heart burn

with an ember of desire.

Isn't hope and desire dependent on our sense of mastery?

Isn't mastery just a leap of faith?

Belief is the last frontier.

Take a leap over time.

Take a look in a moment.


It's not day to day activities that take you where you are going

but the moment to moment habits

the access you give

the boundaries you draw

but most importantly

the dreams

you create.


Image source: Avalanche Creative list of Infomercials

Thursday, October 13, 2022

Summer Again

Soaking up the rain and whipping spit of the waves, as he stood next to the ocean of my memory, a fire hydrant in a red windbreaker, glaring in the midst of a water storm, how I wished it was summer again. Matching silver rings and glances over coffee, army jackets and annual cigarettes, looking at the stonework on the buildings forever, necks craning to see the falcons carved like gargoyles, high enough, on their third story ledges, to amaze us but not so close as to pose any real threat. Under the willow tree, I will always be, with his hands on my shoulders.

Wednesday, October 12, 2022

Fashion Advice for the Damned


Bashing one's head against a wall is only useful if the dent is meant to be an accessory.

Tip toeing around a topic is only good if the shoes are soft.

Heavy headdresses made of lead are best when paired with a bag of burdens.

Walking through mud can give your feet and legs a rather dashing shade of grey.

Holding your head high is always recommended, you never know what you'll see.

Stabbing your heart with a metaphorical blade, make sure its silver and not obsidian.

Your eyelashes are your biggest curtain, drop them with great gravitas.



Tuesday, October 11, 2022

4 of 10 - Lost in the Leaves

This is part of a new series of ten poems, where each one is going to be sparked by an exact quote from someone I know. The quote is something they wrote, said, shouted or whispered. It then moves beyond the quote and I make up my own story or add my own thoughts. Similarities to people real or imagined are real or imagined.


"I'm getting lost in the leaves today." 

I smirked, as if nature's paint brush was scrubbing my cheeks.

I walked in a blue jacket, in the sun and took in the red and gold

the yellow the brown

the mint.

"Oh!" There's a dead rat in the grass

his eye is open,

I don't know if he's breathing or not.

I know someone will have to pick him up 

with a shovel.

I walk on.

I can't shed a tear now.

I'm romanticizing

the colors of life.

Empathy is useless right now.

It's pragmatic, and comforting, more like a towel

to wrap around my head 

after a shower.

I'm not here to judge,

I am here to dance.

Lost in the leaves

smelling the wonder

of Fall. 


Monday, October 10, 2022

Relative Stranger

Hunched over a typewriter

fifty zebras swatting flies

laughing at the sawdust

wiping his eyes

It's how I picture

Charles Bukowski

violins playing and each time the

typewriter

dings

it's an epiphany 

again

and 

again

silent like a church

bells ringing in his mind

far away 

from the gaze

of critics

and fools

wading in a river

of his own creation

fish biting his toes

splashing

in the morning

rain

as the sun rises

burning up the forest

with each passing glance

The muses running through the trees

dressed in white

flowing dresses

as they scatter

and hide behind 

the letters spread across the page like grain

and the idea is eaten.

a new page

goes in.


Saturday, October 8, 2022

3 of 10 - Well that was dramatic.

"Well...that was dramatic."

I didn't know what he meant until I saw the ink spilled everywhere

and the moths in her hair like barrettes

as she sat in the corner

unable to move

Your journals they are all empty

Your mind it is now full.


Girl with Moths Print 

Sabina Sinko

Image source: https://www.saatchiart.com/print/Painting-Girl-with-Moths/392678/2591166/view?sku=P210-U392678-A2781376-T2

Tuesday, October 4, 2022

2 of 10 - People Complain

This is part of a new series of ten poems, where each one is going to be sparked by an exact quote from someone I know. The quote is something they wrote, said, shouted or whispered. It then moves beyond the quote and I make up my own story or add my own thoughts. Similarities to people real or imagined are real or imagined.


"People will complain about anything," she said, and she's right.

The current issue is potholes, on the city streets and alleys

wreaking havoc on people getting to and from work

resulting in car repairs and expenses

unforeseen even though

they tried to swerve.


She talks about how she never wanted to be a Nordstrom woman

and how despite herself

she notices

mauve and grey in her wardrobe

and we laugh

and I agree there's stereotypes out there

and listen to the shrill reminder that there are

unheard voices, unmet needs:

it's time to start blowing the whistle.

We discuss artists and grants.


She encourages me to call my local Alderman or Alderwoman. 

I agree the community needs to speak out,

and it needs to at least be on their

list.


They can swerve all they want.

Tax dollars are their vehicle

and there's no bumps on the road 

for that.

Monday, October 3, 2022

1 of 10 - Looking Up

This is part of a new series of ten poems, where each one is going to be sparked by an exact quote from someone I know. The quote is something they wrote, said, shouted or whispered. It then moves beyond the quote and I make up my own story or add my own thoughts. Similarities to people real or imagined are real or imagined.


"It's just so fucking fake out there now. No souls on the row."

His transparent onion skin was clear for now.

His messages floated down the telephone wires like a letter wet in the grass, ink running

Covered from head to toe in tinsel with

dirty cowboy boots and a shiny gold record

moving like moths to light

toward Christmas lights and Miller Lite

in the bar downtown, the Bluebird where all the songwriters

go.

The spark and fire of busking is now just enough

to get from the couch to the stove in the kitchen

I am him, he is me, 

my Nashville connection

he has no idea

what that town has meant to me.

The difference is he actually went, he actually followed the muse there

all the way down Highway 51 and made it safe and sound

but now his guitar is quiet and his long hair is dirty

who knows

maybe he cut it off

I remember doing that

I remember cutting my losses

How strange it is to realize

that songwriting isn't buried treasure

it's lightning in a bottle.

You need to look up.

he said his mental health is better

now that he's not trying

to be

musician.

I know though

he will keep writing and his muse will tap him on the shoulder

even though getting older

is a scary, strange thing.

Maybe an old leather hat, can tip to him at the brim

for never having to say, "what if?"


Saturday, October 1, 2022

More Swimming

Every sunny part of the kaleidoscope is blinking and moving! Keep on keeping on, tomorrow is a bright day full of life and swimming. 

Decapitato

They say a man will blink thirty seconds after being

decapitated.

They say a snake will slither until sundown.

At least I am not at risk

of being beheaded,

I think to myself on this sunny day.

I am not royal enough for that, 

when the peasants revolt

I will be among them.

I was reading a book about Mona Lisa

and in the list of ancestors 

sometimes it would just be written

"decapitato"

for cause of death.

Dark stuff,

from the time

of "enlightenment."




Description

Undoing the visuals from the eye ball
the eye socket covered in rags
what I couldn't see
the onion peels and wet feet in the bathtub
losing every layer of dry skin
could not begin
to unearth
the shell
the tortoise
turning over