My Ugly Face

I was walking back from work several miles in the cold

and was probably making a grumbly face as I walked

a friend texted me later and said, "I saw you walking!"

and I thought how embarrassing for someone to see me

in my grumpiest moments when I thought I was all alone

lemon-faced against the wind

with no color in my heart

at all

so now I look around with a face of wonder

because why not

relax the skin on my face

look at the flowers 

look at each thing like a miracle

the wavering ripple on a leaf

the fascinating rust on an old grey door

the way power lines lean against the pole

the movement of a jogger

the reflection in the window

the thread on the ground

the trees against the sky

a wonder all of it

all of it a wonder

and put the color back in my heart

and the relaxation back into my face

someone might see me

I might see me

I might see me