Movie in My Head

If I am to ever reach my goal, I must start running, I mustn't stroll

I must believe myself to be a writer of non-atrocities

of aches and pains and gold and lead

of theremins and cellos

If I am to ever reach my goal, I must start reaching, deep into my soul

I must pull forth the beating heart of this soliloquy

and know that it's all just one running

book of the movie in my head.

If I am to ever reach my goal, I must redefine what it means

to be a writer, and stop short of it only when it is the dream

the zenith of it is not in my hands

it's in the process of painting each color

each word, a hue

If I am to ever reach my goal, I must be distressed each day

I miss, and remain distressed enough to bury myself in poem